Hello everyone!

It's been 4 years that I didn't update anything here. I think I wrote a post before about my life updates in 2021 but ended up didn't post it due to various reasons, well more because of personal reasons.

Anyway, i'm still alive and living (quite) well. For those of you who followed my Instagram, of course you know what I've been doing. Since I came back from Korea, my life took another course and I guess it ended up better than I thought. At first I was skeptical of what I can be in Indonesia, despite my photography has been known here. I was so afraid to be back at zero again, building up my brand here. Thankfully I have so many friends and people around me that supported me to move forward. Long story short, I've built 2 brands with some friends, one is a streetwear brand and the other is a perfume brand. I'm still doing my photography work and still dreaming of becoming an artist one day. 

Before I write this post, I was looking through my old photos in Facebook and other places, reminiscing my old youth days. Not saying that I'm old now, but I feel that I'm a different person than in those pictures. Probably not many people notice it though, because I still 'act' the same. I'm still me, but changed to the better. 

So..

I'm writing this post in my free time, which I had a lot these days.

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Ever since I came back to my hometown, I realized a lot of things about me and also my surroundings. In the midst of this pandemic, I did a lot of self-reflection. Reconsidering my life values, my philosophy, where I lead my life and how I should be as who I am. When it comes to art, I still have this big ambition on having my own photo exhibition some day. Although, I was going to do it this year while I'm going to Korea for work, but I decided not to rush it. I don't want to label myself as perfectionist, but I do have a certain issue regarding my "firsts".  I tend to be more careful and plan everything well to do something for the first time, including my decision to move to Germany in the near future. I don't want to rush things just so that I can get over with it, I'm not that impulsive. Well, I used to, but as I grew older, I realized that I always changed my decisions as if I'm indecisive and "plin-plan" which lead me to make lots of wrong choices in my life. I have no regrets on it, it's just I should've done it better.

I guess because I'm going to be 30 this year and I feel like in my last days as 20s, I need to make sure that I've accomplished things that I could do in my 20s and be proud of life that I've lived so far. I've learned my lesson, that I should have not waste my time, energy, and feeling to things that I know it's not for me. I will not start things when I feel that it will make me regret or make myself miserable later on. 

I'm really hoping that I can end my 20s well and starting my 'more' mature life ahead.

Stay safe, everyone!